11.15.09
Middle child syndrome at age 21
Yeah, damn right.
Recent conversations with my mom and my father which I have not seen in only God knows how long (meaning months or years I just don’t remember anymore) have left me with that feeling. Nothing I achieve ever seems to be enough for them. Sometimes I just give up. Why bother communicating if they’re not even listening?
I mean like, uh-huh just keep on comparing. Cause guess what? I am my own person and I was through living my life for someone else ages ago. Been there, done that. Hasta la vista baby!
There. Done ranting
Back to cramming BCH into my limited memory capacity for regurgitation marathon at 9.30 am tomorrow.
Next up.
Kee siao happy happy gila time!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYBODY!
Even though I still have one more paper :p
11.14.09
When will the end come??
It’s been THREE WEEKS since the first paper. TWO more days to go……I am so fed up >:(
Argh think happy thoughts. Happy happy thoughts.
- 16th Nov : Final paper!!!
- 19th-28th Nov : Panda is coming! Going to Grampians! Phillip Island! Mornington!
- 30th Nov-4th Dec : Gold Coast with ZX!
- 5th – 13th Dec : Going back to Msia (if can fit into schedule but looking increasingly unlikely)
- 14th Dec- 12th Feb : Summer vacation scholarship (minus Xmas week)
- 13th Feb : Back to Msia
- 14th Feb: In time for CNY!
- 1st Mar: Beginning of new semester
Haha…actually I wanted to go Msia on the 10th Dec….Even told my mom I wanna book ticket ade…And then, I got offered scholarship for 8 weeks. I get paid AUD350 a week to do research. How awesome is that!
Was thinking of rejecting…cause I miss home and family and friends and FOOD
But then again it’s a rare opportunity and I should take it up right? See if I enjoy doing research as a profession. 8 weeks stuck in a lab hanging out with lecturers wasn’t exactly how I imagined summer break to be though. Haha.
My mom asked me to go home first but…if I stay im Melb, I commence the project sooner and the faster I can go home for good. Plus since no one works on Xmas week, I can only go home right in time for CNY! Too rushed…and I’ll be going home alone then. So I think most likely I won’t be going back in Dec. In that case, will probably fly back on 9th Feb with Joshua and (maybe) Jim.
Sorry bun. Not only will I be missing your bday, I won’t be hanging out with you in summer. Sorry Yuki, I really miss you
Looks like no sleepover, no hehe-haha and no travelling
SIGH.
I am sort of hoping for the offer to be canceled or something so I can just go home. Blah. Exams make me homesick I swear. The whole year I was perfectly fine but now that people are stating to fly off, I feel a bit depressed. I mean I love Melb but it’s not home without everyone here. Plus the weather is getting real hot and creepy insects are emerging
I just wanna go home and be with everyone…
ARGH ONE LAST PAPER!!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10.28.09
Sigh
Everyone in the house is busy studying their asses off
Why are they so hardworking???
Or maybe I’m just excessively lazy.
SIGH.
Whatever man.
I SERIOUSLY BEH TAHAN WEI.
I am so chillex here but they are giving me STRESS!
So freakin cranky now >:(
